Taking a social media vacation
It is the first thing I do in the mornings. Check Facebook, Instagram, and Snapchat. Who has commented on my latest post? Who has recently go engaged or had a baby? Which one of my “friends” dared to try a new look? How many folks have graduated from college or have proven once again they are successful in their business? Who is sitting in her bed feeling defeated, deflated, and totally unworthy 10 minutes after she rises? Yes. This girl.
While I do not think social media is a bad thing, I do find it important to take a step back once in a while. I have had to do so a lot recently. With 30 a mere 7 months away, I am finding myself comparing my life to others more than usual. I was told by my Montana Pastor “stop talking about 30. 30 is just a number and it does not define you”. I am trying to live by that mantra, though lately, I have let the enemy slip in with his deceit. Reminding me I am not where most (as defined by the world’s standards) women are in their 30’s.
Having recently moved back to Portland, I had to take the first job that came along. Meaning a large pay cut. Which in turn resulted in moving back in with my parents. Sigh, what 20-something doesn’t dream of the day they live in their parents house again? Do you sense the sarcasm here? Good. I have all this anxiety bubbling out of me because of where I am at in my life. “What will people think of me?”.
I have thought many times of taking a break from social media. Then, I worry about who I will lose touch with. How will I know what is going on with my “friends”? Okay, really? If I am close to you, I doubt I am finding out about big life changes via Facebook. And if I am, then I assume we were not that close to begin with. And please don’t take offence to that. It is the simple truth. We share our life in person to the ones we are closest to. And if I am being honest, what I am craving is real relationships with real people. Sitting down, sharing a meal and hearing about what is going on with each other.
I am tired of logging on multiple times a day and feeling insecure because, as Steven Furtick explains: “we’re comparing our behind the scenes to everyone else’s highlight reel.” This statement could not be more true. Yes, you look like super mom, but what you didn’t show us were all the #struggles happening behind the scenes. Instead, you just show us pictures of your perfect life because you are #blessed. Let’s be real, shall we? Sometimes, things suck. And it probably took you 30 tries before you got that selfie to look just right. It is okay to struggle and not be perfect all the time. Please, for the sake of everyone comparing themselves to you, just show us your behind the scenes once in a while.
Alas, because of the struggle of constant comparison, I am taking a break. For 30 days. From ALL social media. I am going to focus this time on reading my bible and drawing near to God. Writing and reflecting. Investing in myself, my friends, and family. Figuring out where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. And hopefully spending less time worrying about 30!